but i talk to guys im comfortable with if i dont talk to you theres two reasons only, one i know i will develop feelings for you if i continue talking to you so to avoid that i just dont talk to you at all first because i dont want to get hurt, you probably are thinking im selfish but darling everyone is, okay? second because i am not suppose to be in a relationship now even though im at the stage where i want someone to fill my emptiness, two its because i dont like you i have this power of detecting 'not nice and always tell lies' people so good luck in figuring out which category you are in 

i am not qualified enough to be in relationship because i know i am not serious and not matured enough and i can lose focus trying to be sure of what i want to do for me to survive in the future if im in a relationship so maybe if that day comes i will find someone but now to be honest my life is a mess so let me just clean it up and then i will be in one and i hope that relationship will end with marriage