the thought of having my own family scares me like one day i am going to marry someone and have my own kids though as much as i want to get married im actually not sure myself if i will be ready for it i am going to be 18 this year and really it feels like i was 12 last week but now i am 17 and soon im going to live by my own my parents wont be near me my family wont be near me and i am all alone but if i managed to fit in there will be a possibility that i will survive college and let me tell you i am not good at all in fitting in or adapting myself to new environment it takes time for me to fit in and i really hope i will meet good people because thats all i need in my life; only good people good vibe

i cant picture my future clearly now what do people always say? the future is one uncertainty? nah just kidding i never heard people says that but yes its true though what i want when i was 15 and what i want now is different what i want has changes so really i cant say what i will do when i grow up where i will be in the future i really dont know

but what i do know is that i am hoping for the best well really thats all i can do for now - /} 9:50 PM